since the events of last year the god awful break up which left my life upside down and me rapidly spinning out of control I had only just at the time started working for my self so I was very stressed to say the least I do feel now over a year latter that I have started to pull things back together don’t get me wrong they are by no means perfect as yet but they are getting better day by day.
I’m now having CBT to help me deal with the stress that I’ve been under during the relationship with he who shall not be named I had put on a lot of weight which I have only recently started to shed. So back to the gym it is for me and lot of healthy eating My diet is seriously improved but this can fluctuate most of the foods Ive been eating have had mostly been vegetarian I’ve also found my love of cooking again.
red guacamole I made with onions, baby tomatoes and tomato puree with veggie burgers this was great
Ive also started to draw again which is some thing that I love.
I went on a date on saturday we spent the whole day talking about random stuff it was great I hope we meet up again.
so all in all things are looking up whoop .
So what i relay need to keep doing is focus on doing things that help me out and can keep me moving forward.
I was reading the spoon theory by Christine Miserandino on her site www.butyoudontlooksick.com and was thinking how this applied to a situation I had last year and is still on going with the local council and my council tax where I live they had made a decision that if I was able to sign in at the job centre for JSA and get a business up and running for a period of nearly 4 months that i should have been well enough to be able to get my claim for council tax benefit in on time ( to be honest at the time I was very low on spoons and was barely getting out of bed most mornings).
how ever for various reasons including a really bad bout of depression which had been affecting me since january of last year and had come and gone for the for the whole year and to be honest still is holding on for dear life rather like the black dog cartoon. I had also broken up with my ex who has taken me and my finances for a bit of a joy ride to say the least and I m having to service various debts created by him. I’m getting a little off point here though.
So the issues is that the council says that I should have been able to get my claim in for council tax benefit with no hassle at all I’m sorry I don’t think this is the case at the time my “Spoon Count” was very low to say the least and as said before I was barely getting out of bed in the morning a majority of the time I spelt though whole days I was working from bed when I could to be honest the last thing on my mind was getting out of the house and going to the city council hall to get extra stuff sorted but unfortunately it would appear that my case has been dealt with yet again by somebody who has no idea about mental health and how it affects a person slow clap to that individual there.
if any one is reading this out there how do you find you deal with mental of physical illness do you use spoon theory to explain your situations or do you have another method please let me knowI’m always interested in how others deal with these things .
Thanks to a friend of mine Kat for introducing me to spoon theory.